Lupron Does Not Hurt.

Yay!! Lupron doesn't hurt. It's quick and easy with really no hesitation. I stay on BCP until thursday. I have my baseline scheduled for 10/9 at 11 am. Not sure if I mentioned all the BS around the monitoring clinics. I am going through CCRM up until transfer but have to find some where else after that. Another clinic CRA I called also does not do post transfer monitoring. The one place I did find is 45 mins away :( Trying to convince the RE that I can get my u/s done at my obgyn and get my labs done stat at labcorp. I was suppose to hear from them today, but haven't yet.

So I've had three doses of Lupron so far. Today is the first day I feel a little off. Nervous for my baseline, and nervous for my lining check on 10/24. 3 weeks is a long time to think about what ifs.

Here is my shipment :)

Big Box of Meds

I am still wondering what to do when my sharps container gets full. I should read through all my papers again and see if i missed those directions. Otherwise my BFF is in school to be a pharmacist so I bet she knows :) I got a beautiful cross necklace for myself and received it in the mail the day I started the Lupron. It's a sign :) I just need to remind myself to relax, there is no hurry. There is a plan. Whatever is meant to be will be. I try to tell myself that every time I see or touch my small cross necklace.  

You have to see some pictures from the pumpkin festival. Went with some friends and their daughter who is 7 weeks older than Brooke.  

Zoe at 9 years 9.5 months

Zoe and Brooke-7.5 months

Brooke and Koraleigh-9 months

That pumpkin the babies are sitting on wasn't even the winner in the contest. The winner was about 200 lbs bigger than this one!! (I really do not want to work today)

My Med Protocol / Timeline

Well I got my timeline yesterday. I will be getting 9 different meds in the mail today :) I start the Lupron tomorrow. This is the easy shot and I hope it goes that easy. I keep telling myself its not a big deal to take either shot (PIO as well) but I have a feeling that I will get very nervous. Maybe since I should be getting the smaller 1 inch needle for the PIO it won't look so bad??? Maybe??? I didn't even ask about the size gauge of the thing.... well anyway. Tomorrow I start Lupron and continue birth control and pre natal vitamin. Next Wednesday 10/3 is my last birth control pill. On 10/9 I am to have my first blood work and ultrasound appointment. The day after that, assuming all results are fine, I decrease Lupron and start 6 2mg Estrace tablets. The most I took last time was 3 tabs a day. And my E2 levels were 2659 at the end of that cycle. My lining was only a sad 4.3 at that time. The second cycle I was only on 2 tabs and my E2 was 2243 but my lining was 4.4. I thought I had at least made it to a 5 but I guess I didn't. NEFI was happy with my estrogen results, but a simple google tells me that those figures could be double and still well accepted. I really really hope that jump starting my "cycle" with this mega dose of estrace will be just the ticket to a fluffy lining. Anyway, I will also start low dose aspirin the same day as estrace. Continue this dose until ultrasound and bloodwork on 10/24.  That is going to be a tough two weeks, not knowing what is going on with my lining :) Then CT fertility will contact me on when to stop the lupron and start the PIO. The day after that I add prometrium, and Prednisone and Doxycycline. These last two are only for 5 days. Then another 2 weeks of waiting for a blood pregnancy test. But I know I will take a test before that :) HPT here I come :) Josh feels like this new protocol will take me all the way to transfer. I hope so too.

So I started a workout video last night, Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack. Hopefully I will have lots of muscles by the time I get pregnant and that will hopefully help to carry twins, or even one baby really :) It is so hard to think about work, now that this is going on. AHHH!!! Excited :)

ThunderCats Are Go!

While I am not old enough to remember the cartoon, I did see the movie Juno :) So.... ThunderCats Are Go! 

We have passed all screening. We are set for donor egg retrieval week of November 4th! I should receive my timeline, hopefully tomorrow, but at least this week. The clinic coordinator said to expect to start meds this Saturday. Not a lot of time to talk myself into all these shots, but maybe it is just best if I do NOT think about it :) So FLIPPING EXCITED :) 

I have to tell work, when nosy coworker is not around. She is bugging me too much lately. So she can be the last to know! Well this was not the font color/background I intended, it shall stay for today. Ok. Think..... Is there anything I need to do? I wanted to get into a bit better shape before I get pregnant again. I have lost all the baby weight as of..... a month or two ago. But I still want some muscles. I need to have them preggie pops/drops for the morning/all day sickness. Try more/different/any motion sickness bands. 6 weeks until transfer. I really feel like this time will be different than my unsuccessfull attempts before.  I was just reading a slight horror story on SMO about IPs shutting the GS out with months left to go in the pregnancy, and all the things she is having to deal with. But I can not let myself think that would happen to me. I guess I should try to be aware that these things can and do happen, but I will not let that color my experience. So I am feeling very good about all this exciting exciting stuffs!!!!!!!!!! Its almost 7 pm on the east coast, one last check of my email to see if their contact emailed me...... ...... .... ..... .......... Nope. That's ok. Things are really happening fast now. They set up my billing with CCRM so I can monitor there. Not sure when that first appt will be, maybe next week sometime. I think they only do 2 ultrasounds with this clinic. I've been trying to decide, if it is twins, do I want a c section or to try for things the natural way. I know that choice may not be up to me, but if it is, what do I do? I am leaning more towards the vaginal birth way, but tearing and stitches sucks so bad. Things with Brooke were so easy, the recovery I mean. 

Speaking of Brooke: 

7 months now. She is trying to crawl. She mostly just get frustrated and screams :) But its so cute and I love her so much. The older daughter just went paintball - ing for the first time. The gun was heavy but she liked it some :) She surprises me with how grown she is. Seems like she was just a little girl, now she is approaching 10! Hard to believe. Also hard to believe I am still 105 lbs and can wear all my same clothes from high school! I went to a silpada party yesterday and several women commented on how good I look. That always feels so good. I guess that is my own personal freak of nature bit :) 

We, almost, have a transfer date!

I had my screening yesterday. It feels like days ago, after all the flights etc, but it was yesterday. Took 4 huge tubes of blood, one urine sample, and one ultrasound/cervical mapping/uterus balloon. It was way more comfortable this time around. I did take some tylenol maybe 30 mins before the uterus waterballoon thing, but it was barely crampy this time. Last time I could have cried it hurt so bad. So who knows what that is about.

So I flew into JFK and A picked me up. We drove the 1.5 hours to the hotel, where we met R for dinner. They are both amazing, and I am so glad I trusted my gut to work with these guys! I had so much fun with them. The next morning was time for my screening. A again drove me and he completed some bloodwork too. We then met with the coordinator who told us the ED wants to retrieve the week of November 4th! So we have narrowed the transfer to be between November 7th and 13th. We wont know for sure until much closer to those dates. I am expected to start Lupron, which is new to me and hopefully the secret to my lining success, on 9/28. I am so excited. But terrified of the PIO start. Josh was not able to attend the appointment with me, so he better not get careless and hurt me with the injections. I know that he doesn't always take things as seriously as I do, so that can make me nervous that because he doesn't know any better that he just wont care.  Anyway, A and I had like 6 hours to kill after the appt so we drove a lot and stopped to walk around a little a few times before he dropped me off at the airport again. I am at work today and not really thinking about work at all. I'm so happy to have sorta dates and all.

On a non surrogacy note, Josh and I have tickets to see trans Siberian orchestra on November 17th and that is something I have been wanting to see for years! Really looking forward to that. And the next couple weekends for me are so busy with friends suddenly wanting to catch up, etc, etc. Transfer will be here before I know it. And all my monitoring appts, see I cant talk about anything else for more than a few seconds :) I'm excited. They, A and R, really want twins and I am inclined to share in their hope. They also really want boys, but have resigned themselves to having girls, because they know when you want one gender you get the other :) Ok. actual work calls.

Screening appt scheduled

Quick note to say: Our screening appointment in CT has been scheduled for 9/17 at 10 am. Complete with injection training which I really hope I just do the lupron. I have Josh talked into giving me the PIO if necessary but I was really hoping to avoid all that. We shall see. Still have no travel plans, but that is in the works.