Cycle Canceled :(

Well my uterus did not listen. It did nothing. Was still a 4.3 this morning. The cycle is officially canceled this month. The clinic is giving me 5 days of provera to trigger af. Then I am to call the clinic on CD1 and go from there. Hopefully we can get a transfer 12/30. The eggs were retrieved today and will be fertilized and frozen. My E2 level was great at 2659 today, cd20 and my progesterone was really low where they want it. But for some reason my lining just was not  doing anything. Of course they want an optimal cycle, I want it too. I am so majorly bummed. But this first journey seems to be going this way, so c'est la vie. The clinic just emailed me to say it is too early to talk about potential transfer dates and that they will not be open for transfers that week. Looks like January or later. Boy am I bummed. I want this to work so bad. And for it to be because of me really sucks. We got everything going so quickly after the egg donor choice, and now its my body that is not cooperating. Why? :( I have more estradiol being delivered on wednesday. I wonder if I will even be taking it. The clinic said to go back to taking it orally 2x a day. But not sure for how long. If we are taking the month of december off, then I should probably not be taking it??? I dunno. Now that I feel like I have bugged the clinic too much for one day. I guess I will ask about the estradiol when I give them my day 1.  So So Bummed :(  I'm really trying not to get discouraged.