So hard to focus

I really should be working but all I can think about is surrogacy :) and how much I want to be pregnant for A and R. My uterus has been heavy and achy for the last 3-4 days, Hope that is a good sign. I don't really have anything to update. Only 16 days and we fly back to CT. A shorter visit this time which I think I like better. Have been thinking about future surrogacies and what those might look like. Things I would do differently. Every time I match with someone, I learn new things that are important to me. Plus things change as I get older as well. I have acupuncture tomorrow and lining check bright and early Wednesday morning. I am trying to keep all nervous out of my system, but it can be difficult to do. I hung up some maternity shirts in my closest so that I can look at them every day. Keep positive images in my head. I know my lining did a great job growing on 28 days of estrace. I only get 18 days of it this cycle. Well things could be pushed back a week to give it more time to grow. So Wednesday's ultrasound can not be negative. Either I am on track or my track gets longer. I have drank all my pineapple juice, not had any caffeine or alcohol what so ever. I've managed to drink 2 ensures over the weekend. My acupuncturist really feels that I will be fine. That since my lining did grow well enough last time, that it will again. Think fluffy thoughts, think fluffy thoughts :)  January really does work out so much better for everyone, so I think things happened just the way they were meant to :) I put a new quote up at my desk to read every day.

"Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!"