A Big Rant...

Sorry that this may be a more negative toned post, these BCP makes me a person I don't like as much... But I am going to rant like a mad woman :)

thing #1

There is a girl at work that bugs the ever living crap outta me. She is young, just turned 23, so some of this may be due to her lack of experience. But most of it is because she is dumb as rocks. I try not to hate her, but she doesn't make that easy. I can barely understand her because she says the word "like" every 3 seconds and I like totally can't like stand that like type of like thing.  I don't want to spend much time on her, but I hope she gets a promotion so she leaves my dept.

thing #2

There is a woman, who NEEDS attention. She will start a thread and cry if no one responds to her. Could a person be more needy?! The internet is not dedicated to you. I could not be friends with her. Sometimes no one has a comment to something you say, its no big deal.

thing #3

My clinic is not as good as I thought. I guess they are better than NEFI, but they are far from smoothly operated. So my own impatience aside, they sent an RX to a different pharmacy. They ordered all my meds AGAIN from this pharmacy. Without considering that I still have 150 estrace, they ordered more. Without considering that I have 2.5 vials of PIO left, they ordered more. My thinking is that this could have been avoided if we used the same pharmacy. My IFs would not have had to pay for all this extra stuff if more communication was attempted. Now assuming I get pregnant at our next transfer I will use all these up, but if I don't then that was a big waste of money that the clinic did not care to think about.

thing #4

Dr D thinks the reason we are not pregnant is that my lining was only ok, not great. I told him about my days of positive pregnancy tests, but he did not seems to believe me. Asked if I took them right, asked about using the right urine?! Said it was too soon to know if the embryos had issues or if my uterus had issues. Really?! 4 of 8 embryos just stopped growing, 50% of them stopped growing and you can't think they might have an issue. 2 made it to freeze at 5 days and the 2 that we transferred to me tried to implant but didn't make it all the way. And there is no reason to suspect they might not be of the best quality?! Sharron said "R has one nice 5 day embryo left and A has one embryo left." Don't think I missed how she only said that R's frozen embryo is nice and that A just has one frozen. Dr D never even looked at my lining before transfer, so whose to say it was not great?! Granted the transfer was guided by abdominal ultrasound, so he could tell a little. He said we had better success than NEFI did at getting my lining thick enough to transfer, but since it didn't result in a pregnancy, we must need it thicker. Yes I am being angry and unreasonable, and we have a nice plan in place to try again. But a big :P to you!

AND THE GOOD NEWS:

my next timeline:

12/18/2013 - start Lupron and prenatal
12/25/2013 - last bcp
12/30/2013 - ultrasound and blood work
12/31/2013 - start two 2 mg estrace and .2 cc delestrogen(every tues and fri) and baby aspirin
(1/2/2014 - acupuncture, start chinese herbs and vit E)
(1/7/2014 - acupuncture)
1/8/2014 - ultrasound and blood work
(1/14/2014 - acupuncture)
1/15/2014 - ultrasound and blood work
1/17/2014 - last Lupron if my lining is thick enough
1/18/2014 - first PIO
1/19/2014 - crinone, prednisone (5 days) and doxy (5 days)
1/24/2014 - transfer of 2 frozen 5 day blasts (praying that both survive the thaw)

I still have to schedule the acupuncture, and buy the chinese herbs, once I find that paper she wrote them down on. My agency wants me to find flights, so off to travelocity. :)