First cycle TTC as a TS. June. BFN

So as my title suggests, our first attempt TTC as a TS was in June, but I am just getting around to writing about it now. 

We finished up the contract just a day or two before we actually insemed, so we cut it really close. We actually got 4 insems in over a Friday through Monday stay by R and J. We were all so sure it worked, but then I ovulated two days later than I thought I would. And it was a BFN cycle. 

So my surro track record is as follows
11/2011 - cancel
12/2011 - cancel
11/2013 - chemical
1/2014 - cancel
6/2014 - BFN

Now we should have another insem in two weeks, however IFs want to not try this month. They are feeling so negative about the BFN they want to run more tests on J and explore all options for tracking my cycle, and any supplements that might help us. Which puts the next insems the latter part of September. Surrogacy is such a long long road for me. I really am seriously wondering if this is simply just not what is meant for me. It really is possible, that all these cycles have not worked out for a reason. So I am not really too sad about the BFN. I am just going with the flow. Whatever is meant to be, will be. They got me the CBE monitor that we are trying this cycle. Not sure what this will tell us that OPKs did not, but we will see. IFs are hoping it gives us a couple more days notice of my ovulation. 

That about sums it up.