I Have No Words....

NEFI has recommended that S&S no longer use me as a surrogate. I did not respond to his protocol after 2 cycles and that is all he is willig to try. My agency called and said that she spoke with another RE who they often use who said he would definitely work with me and will accept the testing from NEFI, and that there are many other things to try when one protocol doesnt have the results they are looking for. I am majorly bummed. Bummed for me and Bummed for S&S. This match is over. My agency will match with me another couple. But its just so sad. I want so much to do this, to help someone. Its been a year and I am back to the beginning. I am not ready to give up on surrogacy, its just a lot harder than I thought it would be. Its hard not to get discouraged and wonder if it is meant to be at all. I am not ready to give up though. I leave it in God's hands.