Yep, juvenile I know, but it is. I want to stomp my foot. His work went and got all messed up, laid a bunch of people off, fired some, others quit. Its been a horrible week or two. Josh saw it coming, but I was hoping he was over reacting. Argh. Now they are sending him to Texas for as long as they feel like. He is suppose to work locally. He already went to Kansas City for three weeks and then to Joplin for 4 weeks. Now he could be in Texas for a month. And they want him to drive there, again. Last year he was in Tennesse for a few weeks, I thought that was tough. His truck needs tires, and an oil change and to find out what is wrong with the steering. Not to mention it has almost 200k miles on it already. And we can not afford the $1000 tires right now. I am so aggravated. He told them he really couldn't go, but since they went and fired everybody he has to go. He also needs his tooth pulled. A tooth that was suppose to be pulled yesterday, but he had to reschedule that appointment due to work not letting him go. Now the tooth is getting infected. We have all these things that need taken care of in the next few weeks, but his work just doesn't care. Go to Texas. I wish he could just tell them to F off. I wish it was easy to find another job as good as this one used to be. People with power and responsibility, people who have others depending on their decisions, should have stronger morals and empathy.
I told Josh I will need him home when I am pregnant. I will need him to take care of me :) I need to focus on myself and growing a baby. I need him to take over certain things, and I need to stay as stress free as possible. It is important to me. He agrees. I just hope his work doesn't force him to choose between me and work.
I emailed IM to let her know about Texas as that may complicate flights for transfer. They are no closer to picking a donor. I get the weird feeling they have cold feet? I know how that sounds, but I just feel it. I wish I could help them. I wish the perfect egg donor would fall from the sky :) and it would be clear to them, that this is the right choice. But sometimes it is not that clear. C'est la vie. You just have to leap with faith. Oh that reminds me of a couple quotes I have come to like during this process:
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." Maria Robinson
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." Ralph Waldo Emerson
"We cannot do great things on earth, only small things with great love." Mother Teresa
"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." Winston Churchill
"The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well." Ralph Waldo Emerson
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